Tuesday, March 13, 2012

On Discomfort

So, the last 20 hours or so have sort of sucked in terms of my comfort. You know that feeling you get when you seriously severely overeat? The feeling like your stomach is going to burst at the seams? That's what my left ovary feels like. I saw it on the ultrasound yesterday and it is gigantic. It has two huge follicles in there. One of them measured at a volume of 21! The other was so squished by Mr. Gigantic that she couldn't tell the volume, but estimated about 19. It's sort of the same feeling I have every month at this time, but compounded like woah. My back aches from it. And I just feel like I am bursting exploding out of the side of my belly. It feels so heavy and full and uncomfortable. I keep not wanting to say that I am in pain, that it's just discomfort, but if I am honest with myself, I am in some pain.

In addition, giving myself the trigger shot was sort of traumatic. I wasn't scared to do it, but it was harder than I thought it would be to mix and get all the liquid in the needle and then it actually hurt more than I thought it would. It hurt way more than the saline solution of the fake shot. And it bled. And now the spot is bruised and sore. It made me get teary-eyed and feel sorry for myself.

So, my plan is to work for a few hours, but to leave early and go home and maybe take some stronger painkillers and have a rest. Tomorrow I will come to work just for a couple hours in the morning and then the actual IUI will happen at 12:30 and I plan to basically lay around for the rest of the day thinking good pregnant thoughts.

Yesterday my friend rubbed her adorable 5 month old all over me for luck. I don't know if it worked, but I enjoyed hanging out with the little smiley squirmer either way. Maybe I should pull out my Ghanaian fertility necklace and wear it tomorrow.

In the meantime, there is no position I can be in that is comfortable. So I will sit here and feel sorry for myself for a minute longer.



16 comments:

  1. hopefully it will all be worth it soon! i am sending you good thoughts <3

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  2. xo- go ahead and have a good old pity party- and think of some wonderful thoughts! (which makes me want to go into, "You can Fly" from Peter Pan... but I won't) :)

    Thinking of you.

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    1. Somehow that just got "I believe I can fly" in my head. Hahaha. Definitely NOT helping. xxoo <3

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  3. I had to do a trigger shot in the bathroom of a movie theater in the middle of the last Star Trek movie. Funny thing is, that is when they clean the bathrooms, so I was holding up the clean up crew waiting for medicine to dissolve in saline so I could inject it. Not ideal. The second time was easier because we were at home and Daryl did it for me in his usual, super efficient way. By the way, when you do IVF, both ovarys get huge. I felt like I was carrying around two softballs in my belly. Good luck tomorrow! I think it will work out for you guys.

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  4. Oh, and right now, it feels like I have a large heirloom tomato in my belly. (19 weeks) On the other hand, my ovaries have shrunk back down to the walnut size they were before. I suspect you'll find relief after tomorrow.

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    1. Ian pointed out that this is good practice for pregnancy. I reminded him that my uterus is better equipped for stretching than my ovary! But still.... I'm sure there's some similarity. Anyhow, thanks for all the thoughts! xo

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  5. i hope it will be worth it soon! *crosses fingers thinking about babies* how soon will you know? Is it pretty quick?

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    1. Thank you! It's a normal two weeks before I'll know....pretty much the same as a regular cycle.... Sigh.

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  6. I wish I had a car so I could drive over there and rub my boobs all over you!!!!

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    1. ha! to help me get pregnant? or just because?

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    2. You're trying to get pennit?

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    3. Haha, you're not going to believe this, but my captcha to post that was "Titte."

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  7. Er, for luck. Of course, that's what I meant.

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