Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Going Public

Today I am 8 weeks and 3 days pregnant.  The last time I was pregnant, 8 weeks was the ultrasound where we found out our embryo was no longer alive.  That did not happen today, so we are feeling pretty confident that things might actually work out.

So, there are three of them.  Yes, you heard that right.  All three fucking embryos implanted and have continued to grow and have heartbeats.  !!!  No, I am not having triplets.  It is not an option for us for a variety of reasons.  One of the three is about a week behind in growth and development and with each ultrasound we think he will likely have gone away on his own.  He hasn't yet.  There is still time.

I have graduated, as of today, from the fertility clinic and am working on getting an appointment with my regular OB as well as a referal to a perinatologist in case we need to deal with that third little guy at the end of this trimester.

So, twins???  Maybe?  If everything continues to actually go well.  I'm still not holding my breath, as things continuing to go well hasn't really been how it has worked out for us so far.  But ya know....it's seeming somewhat likely and good at this point.

In the meantime, these three make up one evil looking demon that makes me feel like shit at all times.  I'm trying to embrace the bad feelings, though, as best I can.  Three babies = hella hormones = so tired and ill feeling at all times.  (This photo is actually from a week ago, today they almost actually looked like tiny peanut humans, and less like a creeepy awesome evil ghosty.)


Monday, December 8, 2014


I've made a zine version of this blog and just wanted to let you all know.  It is much shorter than reading the blog start to finish, obviously - more of a self-contained story.  If you are interested, it is available on my etsy shop.