Ian: whatever - it'll work out
if we need IVF either we'll pay $15k or we'll get someone else to pay it
all this shit is super fucking stressful and stupid
me: i know.
like it's not stressful and stupid enough for me without the added money worry part.
Ian: don't worry about the money part - I'll take care of it
me: i feel so guilty about it, though.
i know you hate this shit.
Ian: I do hate this shit, but you've got the other shitty half of this process to deal with.
So, what can I do? Try not to be worried about what might happen if we need to move out of the study and onto other treatment. That's all I can do. I can't not worry. But I can *try* not to worry. Cause it might happen, and it might not, and it's not doing any good to stress about it now. But that definitely felt a bit like a blow to the gut. Of which I can only take so many before I'm down for the count. Ya know?