My New Favorite Number

150!!!

As in the number of my HCG levels according to my Beta result today!!!!!

Sorry to keep you all waiting, but I didn't want to post this before I heard back from Olga, the nurse, about my blood results.

I can't really focus enough to tell you everything, but I had two positive home tests yesterday and have been in a daze ever since.    Today it was confirmed that my numbers are, "exactly where we want it to be".

This chart gives a sense.  We are on day 15.  I go back on Thursday for blood test 2 and we hope to see the number having doubled by then.  An ultrasound probably about a week or so after that.

I really really really deeply and truly did not believe I would ever be pregnant.  There's a lot that can still go wrong.  There's a lot before this pregnancy becomes a baby.  Regardless, though, this is a game changer.  Today I am absolutely verifiably no doubt about it actually pregnant.  For the first time ever!  I even have the horrible amazing heartburn to prove it.  I love you heartburn!  I am trying to focus on the positive, and to not be scared of all the things that can go wrong.  If they do, I will survive.  I want to embrace the good for a minute of this horrific process!

(I won't post a picture of my pee sticks, cause ewww pee, but they are pretty beautiful!)

These shoes are so much happier than the last several times I've posted them!

OK.  I'm at work, and I have 39 minutes until Ian picks me up, and I'm crying again.  I need to go think about something else, as if that's possible for a minute.  OMG I have no idea how to actually be pregnant!

(edited to add:  I will continue to post here, but I'm not going to post news on my regular FB page until I feel more secure (after 1st trimester likely) as there are hundreds more people reading that than this.  Feel free to comment anywhere ova-related, but try to keep it off my normal page, if you don't mind!  xxoo everyone.)