Thursday, January 8, 2015

You Take the Good, You Take the Bad

I don't have a ton of time at the moment, but I'm hoping to find people to chat to who have dealt with either of the following things, both of which I am dealing with.

1.  A reduction.  Mine is scheduled for the 21st of January.  I have 0 qualms about it in terms of the decision, but am scared of it in terms of the needle through my stomach and 3 days of bedrest.

2.  Gestational Diabetes, which I am apparetly *already* being diagnosed with.  Hurray?  I won't have details until the 20th, when I have an appointment, but I'd love to chat if you had this. Especially if it was diagnosed so early in pregnancy.  It sort of freaks me out.

Anyhow, other than these scary things that = too many doctor's appointments in the next 2 weeks, me feeling quite overwhelmed and me dealing with needles constantly, everything is AOK.  The little ones are officially fetuses now instead of embryos and they are moving around waving their little arms and their squirmy jellybean bodies looking almost like very miniature humans.  I think when I start to feel better and get through all this initial bullshit I will begin to feel a bit more excited.  

SO.  If you wanna chat reduction or diabetes, let me know.  You can email me, if you don't want to post publicly.  dearanxiety at gmail.  xo


  1. Just putting a virtual hug out in the universe for you. I don't know anyone personally who has done a reduction, though I know of women on the fertility boards I spent years on who had them, and generally things go just fine. Big needs are always anxiety-producing, though. And bed rest for just a few days sounds pretty good, too (even though I'm not nearly as tired as I thought I'd be, probably due to the bucket loads of steroids I've been on this trimester).

    I do have a friend who went through some ambiguous results for GD and had to track her sugars for a while. If you don't get any messages from those familiar with your blog, I'm happy to connect you.

  2. Check out this blog... She underwent embryo reduction during her pregnancy.

  3. I read your status updates regarding the recent transfer waaay after the fact. But! I may have cheered aloud on the train when I read it! It made me emotional, having read of your experiences for so long. I am sending you so many love-y warm thoughts. xoxo!

  4. I sent you an email. Feel free to contact me anytime. Mrs Green Grass,

  5. I wasn't sure what was going on, so I checked here. Smooches and a fist pump.

  6. I had GD. I have insulin resistance anyway, so it wasn't a surprise. I basically ate the same thing every day. Egg and one slice of gluten-free toast with peanut butter for breakfast, a cheddar cheese stick and four gluten-free crackers for my morning snack, a salad with meat and one slice of gluten-free bread, an egg and a piece of fruit for my afternoon snack, another salad with chicken and a boiled egg and one slice of gluten-free bread or a dessert of fruit, and a midnight snack of peanut butter on a slice of gluten-free bread. I found out that my sugars were fine if I ate lunch or dinner at In-N-Out, if I ordered a #2 protein style, with water, and only half of the fries. I remember being overjoyed that I could eat a lot of pickles. It was annoying, plus it was hard to eat all of the time. I carried around snacks everywhere. I measured my food on a scale. The finger pricking was annoying as well (4xs a day), but it was good to check. There were a few times where I felt terrible and it was because my blood sugar was too low and I needed to eat something or drink a lot of water. All in all, it wasn't awful, just annoying and time consuming. Sam was basically grown with lots of cheese sticks and boiled eggs. By the end, though, I was being monitored a lot. I would have no less than three dr appointments in a week and I think at some point I had one every day. Sam was born early, at 36.5 weeks, completely healthy and neither one of us had blood sugar issues. I ate chili cheese fries the next day and it was fantastic.