Friday, April 25, 2014

I'm Still Here

I'm still here.  This week is National Infertility Awareness Week, and it also happens to be the week that I am ready to deal with this stuff again.  Convenient.

Anyhow, it has been a nice couple of months where I decided not to decide anything and not to do anything.  Sort of blissful, although with a clock always ticking just out of sight.

Now, we've decided.  We started filling out our homestudy paperwork and have dedicated some time each week to working on it (as of this very week).   We also are moving forward with another IVF cycle this summer.  It will be my 3rd egg retrieval and 6th transfer.  Fuck.  Anyhow, our intent is to grow all embryos to day 5 (including the two leftover from last time) and to do genetic testing on them. Worst case, none make it and/or none are genetically normal.  Best case, some do and are and we transfer them.

If we don't end up with a successful pregnancy from that cycle we will move forward with adoption (beyond the homestudy) and also talk about donor eggs as an option and go from there.

I've started being able to talk more about the miscarriage.  I'm guessing that is healthy.  


  1. I am happy to hear these things. Good luck and forward march. <3

  2. *hug*

    It's a sad fact of life that for something so common (miscarriage,) as a society, we are so secretive about it, which makes it that much harder for women going through it for the first time.

    As for the next round of IVF, I'll be crossing my fingers for you!

  3. Been thinking of you guys constantly. So brave to give it another shot, and great to know that you feel like you have a solid plan ahead of you. So so many of my close friends have miscarried and have battled with infertility in one way or another, and I feel as if society really owes people like you for being open about it all. Big love to you both from us here.

  4. I just want you to know that you gave me the courage to stop keeping my infertility a secret.

    1. I'm so happy to hear that. You are strong, I know it...